am i crazy to be going halfway across the country with absolutely no one im close to?
does this make me brave? is this going to build character.
I thought that was what you did, you went away to college. but seeing everyone going and they at least have someone. Maybe they aren't the closest of friends but they have definately gotten closer from their shared futures together.
it worries me that when I think of all the things that drew me to Wisconsin, I keep thinking, oh when so-n-so comes to visit I'm gonna show them this, and take them here.
Its just hard when there is no one to talk to because I really am going to be all alone. on my own. in the cold hard world that is (almost) the frozen tundra.
oh to just stay in southern california with nice, happy, sunshiney people.
I just hope I make some good friends
Monday, May 31, 2010
Saturday, July 25, 2009
its all about the little things
oh so i have read the chicago supplemental essay questions
i believed they were released on the first and i have been avoiding it this entire time.
i have no idea why as the website is just so gosh darn cheery
and i have sort of talked myself out of chicago so it is obviously not a huge stress builder.
and yet i think i parallel my ability to answer the questions with my self worth
yes I'm being a bit dramatic but i think, without even knowing these questions existed, these are the very ones that I have been fearing because there is absolutely no way to prepare except by living life i guess.
being able to convey your passions as best you can
but how can you?
passion cant be written down on to paper. you cant just string together well structured sentences to say "here. this is me. this is what defines me"
i will admit that some people do a stellar job at attempting to regurgitating their passion onto paper, but you cant see it in their face, in their eyes.
like a medal or even a finished project, you never see the pain and sweat and tears that go into that object. & the only person that can see all that in the object, is the person who earned it.
so yes, im scared shitless to apply to college. I know everyone has to do it. and sometimes i think why is this really that big of a deal, because what four years of your life? but that gonna be YOUR life. not your parents life, not your teachers life, your own life. all on your own.
so yeah, this essay is kinda the most important essay your gonna write in your life. so why is it so fucking difficult for me?
why do i not see that i can do this? because i want to be original, and individual.
and im afraid taht my flaws will shine through like a lightbulb.
the one thing that keeps popping into my head is a scene in Bruno, when the guy is basically making all these stereotypes about women and brings up how they never get to the point.
thats is so completely me. it even bugs the shit out of me.
what i love is like how a simpsons episode goes, or how chuck klosterman tells his stories.
you start with something random and it somehow leads to something else thats totally different, but then you can tie that first thing back in.
like my limit does not exist post. thats one of my favorites, i randomly start talking about mean girls and math class, then i talk about how much i love pace and how it prepares you for life. and then i end with how its just like in the end of mean girls when there arent anymore cliques.
that was perfect.
i wish i could write like chuck klosterman. I wish that i didn't wish i wrote like someone. I wish i was that good of a writer.
and i hate that good writing is like certain styles of writing. I wish i could be like hemmingway and have my own unique style completely identifiable to me.
but im not unqiue. because of the imense global population increase, its a bit difficult to be completely unique. there is simply too many of us.
but yet we all do differ slighty, sans identical twins and clones, with a one of a kind genetic makeup.
how can someone not find that fasinating.
i mean science is truly everything. everyone likes science even if they arent a nerd because science is everything.
writers, they observe people, their personalities, their adaptions to situations, their emotions.
musicians, physics, they way instruments work. the way you produce sound, your hearing, rythym, sound waves.
everyone uses the scientific process to do what they do.
we as humans are curious and we want stuff explained.
we want to know, we want to learn, we want to experience.
its called living.
& i wish it wasn't so difficult to be good at something you so desperately wish you were good at.
i believed they were released on the first and i have been avoiding it this entire time.
i have no idea why as the website is just so gosh darn cheery
and i have sort of talked myself out of chicago so it is obviously not a huge stress builder.
and yet i think i parallel my ability to answer the questions with my self worth
yes I'm being a bit dramatic but i think, without even knowing these questions existed, these are the very ones that I have been fearing because there is absolutely no way to prepare except by living life i guess.
being able to convey your passions as best you can
but how can you?
passion cant be written down on to paper. you cant just string together well structured sentences to say "here. this is me. this is what defines me"
i will admit that some people do a stellar job at attempting to regurgitating their passion onto paper, but you cant see it in their face, in their eyes.
like a medal or even a finished project, you never see the pain and sweat and tears that go into that object. & the only person that can see all that in the object, is the person who earned it.
so yes, im scared shitless to apply to college. I know everyone has to do it. and sometimes i think why is this really that big of a deal, because what four years of your life? but that gonna be YOUR life. not your parents life, not your teachers life, your own life. all on your own.
so yeah, this essay is kinda the most important essay your gonna write in your life. so why is it so fucking difficult for me?
why do i not see that i can do this? because i want to be original, and individual.
and im afraid taht my flaws will shine through like a lightbulb.
the one thing that keeps popping into my head is a scene in Bruno, when the guy is basically making all these stereotypes about women and brings up how they never get to the point.
thats is so completely me. it even bugs the shit out of me.
what i love is like how a simpsons episode goes, or how chuck klosterman tells his stories.
you start with something random and it somehow leads to something else thats totally different, but then you can tie that first thing back in.
like my limit does not exist post. thats one of my favorites, i randomly start talking about mean girls and math class, then i talk about how much i love pace and how it prepares you for life. and then i end with how its just like in the end of mean girls when there arent anymore cliques.
that was perfect.
i wish i could write like chuck klosterman. I wish that i didn't wish i wrote like someone. I wish i was that good of a writer.
and i hate that good writing is like certain styles of writing. I wish i could be like hemmingway and have my own unique style completely identifiable to me.
but im not unqiue. because of the imense global population increase, its a bit difficult to be completely unique. there is simply too many of us.
but yet we all do differ slighty, sans identical twins and clones, with a one of a kind genetic makeup.
how can someone not find that fasinating.
i mean science is truly everything. everyone likes science even if they arent a nerd because science is everything.
writers, they observe people, their personalities, their adaptions to situations, their emotions.
musicians, physics, they way instruments work. the way you produce sound, your hearing, rythym, sound waves.
everyone uses the scientific process to do what they do.
we as humans are curious and we want stuff explained.
we want to know, we want to learn, we want to experience.
its called living.
& i wish it wasn't so difficult to be good at something you so desperately wish you were good at.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
SUMMERTIME, & the livin's easy
it's finally summer and I'm living it up.
i pretty much do one eventful thing everyday.
i have so many thoughts going on right now.
With ADD, you just have a million different thoughts and ideas and you'd think that when you "take your Ritalin" the thoughts would go away.
what it feels like more is that instead of each thought popping in your head and then slipping away, you remember each thought and feel that you must see each thing through.
your a lot more productive but you also feel a lot more worn out. which you think is the oppicite because its supposed to be curing your hyperactivity.
well i haven't written here in a while, since its been a crazy rush of everything and i really haven't felt like I've had much to say.
in good news though, I think that this blog as really helped in one way. I was using to just help myself get better at putting what im thinking into words, and being able to truly talk about myself.
Since getting this my grades in English skyrocketed and i got perfect scores on my past two essays. WOOHOOO!
i dont think i've ever gotten a perfect in writing in my life. i felt so acomplished, especially because i used my OWN voice, not what i thought the teacher wanted (although he obviously did want my own voice) or just the stles that i had been tought to conform too.
I also need to give major props to my girl alex. just sitting next to her in English helped me so much, just to see how a good writer writes. I hated that teachers stopped sharing the "good" writing that was done by fellow students. She also helped by editing and making my words more consise, without altering the voice in any way. I dont think she even realizes how greatful I am.
Well since i have been off and have been able to talk to people about the things that bother or entertain me, i don't really feel the need to go on about it, even though it is on my mind.
At the moment, since i decided to start tackling my college application, I am totally overwhelmed by the whole process. I have feared writing the personal statement since...I wanna say the start of middle school, but im gonna say it was in 8th grade when we had to write a My Life essay. My failure (it was a C, which was VERY rare for me) to write an essay about myself created a wave of anxiety, I dreaded the time when I would have to sit down and create a literary masterpiece about who I was as a person, and what i could contribute. I completely agree that we are not just a transcript full of numbers and data, and that we need to show who we are, but to have to do it in a formal essay just made me angry, since i saw it as being favored to those who could write.
Now I have come to see that this essay isn't quite as FORMAL as i thought it was, and i see that being able to express yourself on paper is a vital skill in the real world. Also with my recent sucess in English, I do feel abit more confident in the whole process. I know now that i can write in a tone that closely mirror my own, and my strengths in speech can be appplied to my writting.
What i mostly fear now is talking about myself. I'm young, and my view on myself change weekly. When it comes to putting down what i think my strengths and weaknesses are, I blank. Of course that's an exaggeration but when something does come to mind i feel like its a lie. I also then feel like i should lie, like say my weakness is "i work TOO hard" to make myself sound better. Of course I dont mean flat out lie, but choose the weaknesses that I feel show my good side because honestly i do work too hard sometimes, and it is a bad thing to an extent but i don't see it as a weakness, more of a personality quirk, it makes me who I am. I guess i just feel like im a phony and hate that i need to tell someone what my strengths and weaknesses are because they can't take the time to get to know them. I understand there is no way to really do that, but thats why i see the system as flawed, I mean the system has many more flaws, but the enormity of the world we live in, although it has advatanges, has really caused us to lose the little things that are truly important in life. One of my favorite movies is the school of rock, and I love when Jack Black gives his speech about "the man"(it is nessasary to include it because it is just so well put :D)
Give up, just quit, because in this life, you can't win. Yeah, you can try, but in the end you're just gonna lose, big time, because the world is run by the Man. The Man, oh, you don't know the Man. He's everywhere. In the White House... down the hall... Ms. Mullins, she's the Man. And the Man ruined the ozone, he's burning down the Amazon, and he kidnapped Shamu and put her in a chlorine tank! And there used to be a way to stick it to the Man. It was called rock 'n roll, but guess what, oh no, the Man ruined that, too, with a little thing called MTV! So don't waste your time trying to make anything cool or pure or awesome 'cause the Man is just gonna call you a fat washed up loser and crush your soul. So do yourselves a favor and just GIVE UP!
I think that is soo true, we really have to struggle to find ways to be individual and "stick it to the man" because we have created "the man" to rule over everything, for whatever reason, but we lose things in the process, things that are "pure" and "awsome"
although of course i disagree with the give up statement of it all. it was nessasary in the plot of the movie because then he obviously doesn't give up and he acomplished what he has always wanted to do and that everyone told him he couldn't (have one great rock show), and if thats not a good movie I don't know what is.
So i can totally tell my medicine has worn off, i dont really remember anything i said and I'm just happy its summer, and i've really been having the time of my life. Later I might regret it but for now i'm gonna enjoy it while im still young
i pretty much do one eventful thing everyday.
i have so many thoughts going on right now.
With ADD, you just have a million different thoughts and ideas and you'd think that when you "take your Ritalin" the thoughts would go away.
what it feels like more is that instead of each thought popping in your head and then slipping away, you remember each thought and feel that you must see each thing through.
your a lot more productive but you also feel a lot more worn out. which you think is the oppicite because its supposed to be curing your hyperactivity.
well i haven't written here in a while, since its been a crazy rush of everything and i really haven't felt like I've had much to say.
in good news though, I think that this blog as really helped in one way. I was using to just help myself get better at putting what im thinking into words, and being able to truly talk about myself.
Since getting this my grades in English skyrocketed and i got perfect scores on my past two essays. WOOHOOO!
i dont think i've ever gotten a perfect in writing in my life. i felt so acomplished, especially because i used my OWN voice, not what i thought the teacher wanted (although he obviously did want my own voice) or just the stles that i had been tought to conform too.
I also need to give major props to my girl alex. just sitting next to her in English helped me so much, just to see how a good writer writes. I hated that teachers stopped sharing the "good" writing that was done by fellow students. She also helped by editing and making my words more consise, without altering the voice in any way. I dont think she even realizes how greatful I am.
Well since i have been off and have been able to talk to people about the things that bother or entertain me, i don't really feel the need to go on about it, even though it is on my mind.
At the moment, since i decided to start tackling my college application, I am totally overwhelmed by the whole process. I have feared writing the personal statement since...I wanna say the start of middle school, but im gonna say it was in 8th grade when we had to write a My Life essay. My failure (it was a C, which was VERY rare for me) to write an essay about myself created a wave of anxiety, I dreaded the time when I would have to sit down and create a literary masterpiece about who I was as a person, and what i could contribute. I completely agree that we are not just a transcript full of numbers and data, and that we need to show who we are, but to have to do it in a formal essay just made me angry, since i saw it as being favored to those who could write.
Now I have come to see that this essay isn't quite as FORMAL as i thought it was, and i see that being able to express yourself on paper is a vital skill in the real world. Also with my recent sucess in English, I do feel abit more confident in the whole process. I know now that i can write in a tone that closely mirror my own, and my strengths in speech can be appplied to my writting.
What i mostly fear now is talking about myself. I'm young, and my view on myself change weekly. When it comes to putting down what i think my strengths and weaknesses are, I blank. Of course that's an exaggeration but when something does come to mind i feel like its a lie. I also then feel like i should lie, like say my weakness is "i work TOO hard" to make myself sound better. Of course I dont mean flat out lie, but choose the weaknesses that I feel show my good side because honestly i do work too hard sometimes, and it is a bad thing to an extent but i don't see it as a weakness, more of a personality quirk, it makes me who I am. I guess i just feel like im a phony and hate that i need to tell someone what my strengths and weaknesses are because they can't take the time to get to know them. I understand there is no way to really do that, but thats why i see the system as flawed, I mean the system has many more flaws, but the enormity of the world we live in, although it has advatanges, has really caused us to lose the little things that are truly important in life. One of my favorite movies is the school of rock, and I love when Jack Black gives his speech about "the man"(it is nessasary to include it because it is just so well put :D)
Give up, just quit, because in this life, you can't win. Yeah, you can try, but in the end you're just gonna lose, big time, because the world is run by the Man. The Man, oh, you don't know the Man. He's everywhere. In the White House... down the hall... Ms. Mullins, she's the Man. And the Man ruined the ozone, he's burning down the Amazon, and he kidnapped Shamu and put her in a chlorine tank! And there used to be a way to stick it to the Man. It was called rock 'n roll, but guess what, oh no, the Man ruined that, too, with a little thing called MTV! So don't waste your time trying to make anything cool or pure or awesome 'cause the Man is just gonna call you a fat washed up loser and crush your soul. So do yourselves a favor and just GIVE UP!
I think that is soo true, we really have to struggle to find ways to be individual and "stick it to the man" because we have created "the man" to rule over everything, for whatever reason, but we lose things in the process, things that are "pure" and "awsome"
although of course i disagree with the give up statement of it all. it was nessasary in the plot of the movie because then he obviously doesn't give up and he acomplished what he has always wanted to do and that everyone told him he couldn't (have one great rock show), and if thats not a good movie I don't know what is.
So i can totally tell my medicine has worn off, i dont really remember anything i said and I'm just happy its summer, and i've really been having the time of my life. Later I might regret it but for now i'm gonna enjoy it while im still young
Sunday, May 17, 2009
EARTHQUAKE!
hmmm, i like the small font, but kinda difficult to read I can see,
not that anyone is really reading this :]
so i realized that my friend has a tumblr and she is the one person who truly talks and writes in the way i wish to emulate (but then i'm not being myself so thats no good now is it)
she just has littel quips about things she enjoys, what shes found online that is interesting, or funny things/ conversations that occured in school that day.
i don't think i can really do that though, i have to explain something in great detail i guess, i dunno.
man i'm kinda depressed, i think its just cause i'm tired? even though it... haha just had an earthquake, it was kinda big, i actually got under the table :]
thats the way to get the adrenaline going
so only 8:40
not exatly tired anymore,
seriously it says 2 minutes, but i think in the span of 30 sec at least 20 people posted earthquake as their status.
this gonna be the big talk at school tommarrow, everyone feels the need to relive there experience during the 10-15 seconds, because it makes you feel special,
i think its because you've just experienced something that was news so its like your news quality.
i mean this is gonna be on the news for like the rest of the night,
it was wierd cause this was the first earthquake i actually remember.
we had one over the summer but i was on a tour of UCLA and didn't feel it at all. but of course i still have a story to tell. it was ironic because apparently when it occured, the tour guide was telling us how the buildings were being retrofitted and they were almost done, so they were all safe during earthquakes, becuase their was a bunch of people from out of state.
also my borther was in Hawaii with his friends families and he saw on the news about the earthquake so he wsa trying to call my mom but hershe couldn't hear her phone so she wasn't picking up and my brother started freaking out, because the news makes it this huge deal.
but yeah, we came home and a couple things were knocked over but everyone said it was pretty big.
but see i didn't even feel it and I had a story to tell.
but this one, was pretty big as i had enough time to get up and get under the table. me and my brother just kinda looked at each other, we got up and i wasn't sure really what to do, because you just dont know when its gonna stop, but we crawled under out table, and covered our heads liked we learned in school :] honestly though i cant imagine having an earthquake in school, i mean choas, you cant really fit under your desk, would the teacher have to tell you eofre you'd get under? and you'd feel like a retard when its over, except if its a really serious one, that would be pretty fucking scary.
but no one could settle down for probably the rest class. what if we were all outside? i mean i guess outside is better but if it was big i'd be pretty freaked out.
oh well, that just made life a little more interesting, definately made my day, espically seeing my brothers face.
man, makes me love california
i dunno i was gonna talk about how'd i jsut saw breakfast at tiffany's for the first time, usually i never really talk about what i intended to start talking about and i just felt i needed some form of release, but kinda over that right now, oh well maybe later
not that anyone is really reading this :]
so i realized that my friend has a tumblr and she is the one person who truly talks and writes in the way i wish to emulate (but then i'm not being myself so thats no good now is it)
she just has littel quips about things she enjoys, what shes found online that is interesting, or funny things/ conversations that occured in school that day.
i don't think i can really do that though, i have to explain something in great detail i guess, i dunno.
man i'm kinda depressed, i think its just cause i'm tired? even though it... haha just had an earthquake, it was kinda big, i actually got under the table :]
thats the way to get the adrenaline going
so only 8:40
not exatly tired anymore,
seriously it says 2 minutes, but i think in the span of 30 sec at least 20 people posted earthquake as their status.
this gonna be the big talk at school tommarrow, everyone feels the need to relive there experience during the 10-15 seconds, because it makes you feel special,
i think its because you've just experienced something that was news so its like your news quality.
i mean this is gonna be on the news for like the rest of the night,
it was wierd cause this was the first earthquake i actually remember.
we had one over the summer but i was on a tour of UCLA and didn't feel it at all. but of course i still have a story to tell. it was ironic because apparently when it occured, the tour guide was telling us how the buildings were being retrofitted and they were almost done, so they were all safe during earthquakes, becuase their was a bunch of people from out of state.
also my borther was in Hawaii with his friends families and he saw on the news about the earthquake so he wsa trying to call my mom but hershe couldn't hear her phone so she wasn't picking up and my brother started freaking out, because the news makes it this huge deal.
but yeah, we came home and a couple things were knocked over but everyone said it was pretty big.
but see i didn't even feel it and I had a story to tell.
but this one, was pretty big as i had enough time to get up and get under the table. me and my brother just kinda looked at each other, we got up and i wasn't sure really what to do, because you just dont know when its gonna stop, but we crawled under out table, and covered our heads liked we learned in school :] honestly though i cant imagine having an earthquake in school, i mean choas, you cant really fit under your desk, would the teacher have to tell you eofre you'd get under? and you'd feel like a retard when its over, except if its a really serious one, that would be pretty fucking scary.
but no one could settle down for probably the rest class. what if we were all outside? i mean i guess outside is better but if it was big i'd be pretty freaked out.
oh well, that just made life a little more interesting, definately made my day, espically seeing my brothers face.
man, makes me love california
i dunno i was gonna talk about how'd i jsut saw breakfast at tiffany's for the first time, usually i never really talk about what i intended to start talking about and i just felt i needed some form of release, but kinda over that right now, oh well maybe later
Monday, May 11, 2009
the limit does not exist!
soooo in precalc today we started going over limits, since apparently that is all calculus is about.
and of course whenever limits was mentioned by anyone, you were required to quote Mean Girls
of course that was probably the only thing learned today.
god AP's make school pointless,
Chinese= FINALLY watch Mulan (that was the only plus)
obviously nothing in history, as the brutal uphill struggle peaked on Friday, although we did find out we will be having quizzes on world history, for the few who have chosen to take the SAT II, me not being one of them.
and english stil nothing.
yes today was very painful.
especially just the feeling of it being over, even though i have APES tmrw.
i mean its something that you've been dreading yet wanting to come since basically school started, so now what?
life still goes on, and you almost feel like you regret it.
you kind of realized you liked the adraniline, the meaningness in life.
the ability to have a full proof excuse for everything "I'm studying," and the connecting you have with your peers as they all are expreienceing this too.
beofre we went into where we were taking our test, the head haunco lady got us all together and talked to us, and once she was done, Riley and Nic came up and were like everyone bring it together, Nic explained what was about to occur, and he yelled "What are we gonna do?" and we all screeched back "GET INTENSE!" of couuse they thought it was hilarious becuase they usd it for it's punny quality of " GET IN TENTS" and i'll admit it was a stupid thing to yell, but the adranaline and the prep that you've been putting in for what is about to transpire, it felt exactly like the big game of the year, and you just wanted some form of outlet.
what i loved was not only are we nerdy enough to come up with this, but that our PACE class is so unfied that we al would do it, because we were all on the same page in one way or another.
we have a bond that I really dont think any other group of high schoolers have, in that in one way or another we all accept each other.
we donot have to like each other, and we definately dont try and conform to each other (we sure as hell dont look alike) but somehow we all just get IT.
I will admit that we aren't all geniuses, but the fact that each and every one of us wasn't too shallow to do this cheer, and the majority probably didnt even feel nerdy, shows that we are all smarter then your typical high school kid.
& in some ways I'm happy, because we live more in the real world than other high schoolers, and in some ways I'm sad, because I know that the real world isn't as perfect as we wish it was, and sometimes it almost is just like high school.
But I love that we all accept each other for who we are, and although we all view the world differently, and we're all hormonal and ansty ( we are still teenagers), we all have some form of love for each other, just because we're human beings.
& thats something that the world needs to be more like, and its something that I think alot of us who are in PACE forget about, and don't really see that as a benefit to being in PACE, and all we think is that school = life, and that our worth is judged on the grade we get, the scores we achieve and the colleges that think were worthy enough to pay them thousands of dollars, of course the good grades and test scores could eliminate the fee but thats not the point.
And the point isn't that school isn't important, its the knowledge that is. & alot of it is gained from the classes, and the better colleges might well give you more knowledge than you ever thought possible, but what the most valuable knowledge we gain from PACE is learning to love thy neighbor and love thy self. Im not religous by any means, but even the golden rule " treat others the way you wished to be treated," is something they don't teach in high school.
I think in Mean Girls, the "resolution" is unrealistic in many high schools (although the drama isn't) but the dynamic at the very end of the movie is exactly what poly PACE is like, and that is the sole reason, above all other reasons, why I love it, and why in some ways, I don't ever want to leave.
and of course whenever limits was mentioned by anyone, you were required to quote Mean Girls
of course that was probably the only thing learned today.
god AP's make school pointless,
Chinese= FINALLY watch Mulan (that was the only plus)
obviously nothing in history, as the brutal uphill struggle peaked on Friday, although we did find out we will be having quizzes on world history, for the few who have chosen to take the SAT II, me not being one of them.
and english stil nothing.
yes today was very painful.
especially just the feeling of it being over, even though i have APES tmrw.
i mean its something that you've been dreading yet wanting to come since basically school started, so now what?
life still goes on, and you almost feel like you regret it.
you kind of realized you liked the adraniline, the meaningness in life.
the ability to have a full proof excuse for everything "I'm studying," and the connecting you have with your peers as they all are expreienceing this too.
beofre we went into where we were taking our test, the head haunco lady got us all together and talked to us, and once she was done, Riley and Nic came up and were like everyone bring it together, Nic explained what was about to occur, and he yelled "What are we gonna do?" and we all screeched back "GET INTENSE!" of couuse they thought it was hilarious becuase they usd it for it's punny quality of " GET IN TENTS" and i'll admit it was a stupid thing to yell, but the adranaline and the prep that you've been putting in for what is about to transpire, it felt exactly like the big game of the year, and you just wanted some form of outlet.
what i loved was not only are we nerdy enough to come up with this, but that our PACE class is so unfied that we al would do it, because we were all on the same page in one way or another.
we have a bond that I really dont think any other group of high schoolers have, in that in one way or another we all accept each other.
we donot have to like each other, and we definately dont try and conform to each other (we sure as hell dont look alike) but somehow we all just get IT.
I will admit that we aren't all geniuses, but the fact that each and every one of us wasn't too shallow to do this cheer, and the majority probably didnt even feel nerdy, shows that we are all smarter then your typical high school kid.
& in some ways I'm happy, because we live more in the real world than other high schoolers, and in some ways I'm sad, because I know that the real world isn't as perfect as we wish it was, and sometimes it almost is just like high school.
But I love that we all accept each other for who we are, and although we all view the world differently, and we're all hormonal and ansty ( we are still teenagers), we all have some form of love for each other, just because we're human beings.
& thats something that the world needs to be more like, and its something that I think alot of us who are in PACE forget about, and don't really see that as a benefit to being in PACE, and all we think is that school = life, and that our worth is judged on the grade we get, the scores we achieve and the colleges that think were worthy enough to pay them thousands of dollars, of course the good grades and test scores could eliminate the fee but thats not the point.
And the point isn't that school isn't important, its the knowledge that is. & alot of it is gained from the classes, and the better colleges might well give you more knowledge than you ever thought possible, but what the most valuable knowledge we gain from PACE is learning to love thy neighbor and love thy self. Im not religous by any means, but even the golden rule " treat others the way you wished to be treated," is something they don't teach in high school.
I think in Mean Girls, the "resolution" is unrealistic in many high schools (although the drama isn't) but the dynamic at the very end of the movie is exactly what poly PACE is like, and that is the sole reason, above all other reasons, why I love it, and why in some ways, I don't ever want to leave.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
"we hoppin' out like the mystery machine"
asher roth is the shit.
I dont wanna sound like a total white kid that sounds like a loser, but I dont pretend to like ghetto rap if I don't.
I like what I like.
so I'm not gonna act like I know what I'm talking about, but I have to admit he has some skills. & I don't think Akon and Jay Z can be wrong.
I saw him at Bamboozle, and I probably heard I Love College like a month before I saw him, but I loved him.
he had very good stage presence, hes really adorable, his friend that raps with him (I wish I knew his name) is also really adorable and he has a big black drummer. I love when people have big black drummers.
or girl drummers.
I have a thing for drummers in general. :]
so yah I'd have to say I love blunt cruisin', which he performed.
and then As I Em, which is talking about how he respects eminem and he was an inspiration, but dont just compare him to eminem cause they're both white, and dont discredit him just cause he's white.
Also some more hilarious ones are Bad Day, and Lion's Roar.
I really like his album cause its not like I Love College 12 times.
he has alot of different beats, and lot of different people singing on different tracks, and he mixes it up between being funny and serious, with songs like fallin' which I could totally see just listening to as your ridin down PCH with the top down. & his dream, which talks about his father.
I mean its no slim shady, cleaning out my closet or lose yourself, but its sweet.
I predict that obviously LArk on My Go Kart is the next hit, but Be By Myself ft. Ceelo (whose the guy in Gnarls Barkley) and She Don't Wanna Man, which is more on the hip hop almost pop side, are gonna the hot new songs everyones listening to.
but I have to admit I would not have been so keen to get the album if I hadn't seen him at bamboozle.
speaking of Bamboozle, I'm a huge Fall Out Boy fan. & I used to be kind of ashamed of it, because, for some reason, the rock gods who determine what is "cool" music, have decided that these "emo" boys will never be considered that "cool"
but whatever, I really like them, and if you met me, I'm not the stereotypical fan of theirs. But if you go there concerts, which I've been to 4 now? yah so if you go there isn't as many stereotypical kids as you think. & they haven't gotten as many fans just because they're fan base is huge (even though thats true) its cause they actually are legitimately good.
So at first I just genuinely liked there tunes, they were my first concert. but now I really like what they stand for. I mean I've obviously never met them, well I did, but the meet and greet was like take a picture with them (although Patrick stump complimented me on my shoes, which were silver converse hi-tops that I had gotten for like $5 at a resale store!) But yah they just seem like really nice guys, and they're really "love" their fans, and understand they wouldn't be anywhere without them.
so I was trying to say that at bamboozle we were walking back to the main stage, and there were golf carts coming up behind us and like honking, and my brother was jokingly like oh look i bet its fall out boy. and obviously it was them. so as they pull up right next to us I had to aknowledge that we apriciate them, and we were there to see them mainly. so I was like "we love you! whoooo, whooo" cause I could particularly yell " hey I've seen you like four times, and I was at the troubadour show in the front row, and I love what you guys do!" or something along the lines of that.
so after I felt like a total retard but check this out:
Fall Out Boy - US Tour Update 1 from clandestine on Vimeo.
so yah i'm in it with my friends at like 6:30 about? I was wearing a vest and a messenger-like bag, and black jeans.
that was actually a really fun concert that I had never heard of until this year, and I really enjoyed it.
It was set up really well, It was sponsored by Wonka so they were giving out free candy like crazy.
They weather was a bit hot, but nothing like warped tour of Coachella I imagine.
I plan on trying to go next year, if the bands are just as good.
(hopefully my friends and I get to go to Coachella too!)
so yah need to get studying. yup Saturday and I'm studying but I have a test in every class on monday. And its all my hard classes (of course)
and on Tuesday I have a final in APES.
& of course AP's are in 2 weeks!
yay! of course so much relief when those are over.
man I guess its about 30 more school days left or something.
wow.
I dont wanna sound like a total white kid that sounds like a loser, but I dont pretend to like ghetto rap if I don't.
I like what I like.
so I'm not gonna act like I know what I'm talking about, but I have to admit he has some skills. & I don't think Akon and Jay Z can be wrong.
I saw him at Bamboozle, and I probably heard I Love College like a month before I saw him, but I loved him.
he had very good stage presence, hes really adorable, his friend that raps with him (I wish I knew his name) is also really adorable and he has a big black drummer. I love when people have big black drummers.
or girl drummers.
I have a thing for drummers in general. :]
so yah I'd have to say I love blunt cruisin', which he performed.
and then As I Em, which is talking about how he respects eminem and he was an inspiration, but dont just compare him to eminem cause they're both white, and dont discredit him just cause he's white.
Also some more hilarious ones are Bad Day, and Lion's Roar.
I really like his album cause its not like I Love College 12 times.
he has alot of different beats, and lot of different people singing on different tracks, and he mixes it up between being funny and serious, with songs like fallin' which I could totally see just listening to as your ridin down PCH with the top down. & his dream, which talks about his father.
I mean its no slim shady, cleaning out my closet or lose yourself, but its sweet.
I predict that obviously LArk on My Go Kart is the next hit, but Be By Myself ft. Ceelo (whose the guy in Gnarls Barkley) and She Don't Wanna Man, which is more on the hip hop almost pop side, are gonna the hot new songs everyones listening to.
but I have to admit I would not have been so keen to get the album if I hadn't seen him at bamboozle.
speaking of Bamboozle, I'm a huge Fall Out Boy fan. & I used to be kind of ashamed of it, because, for some reason, the rock gods who determine what is "cool" music, have decided that these "emo" boys will never be considered that "cool"
but whatever, I really like them, and if you met me, I'm not the stereotypical fan of theirs. But if you go there concerts, which I've been to 4 now? yah so if you go there isn't as many stereotypical kids as you think. & they haven't gotten as many fans just because they're fan base is huge (even though thats true) its cause they actually are legitimately good.
So at first I just genuinely liked there tunes, they were my first concert. but now I really like what they stand for. I mean I've obviously never met them, well I did, but the meet and greet was like take a picture with them (although Patrick stump complimented me on my shoes, which were silver converse hi-tops that I had gotten for like $5 at a resale store!) But yah they just seem like really nice guys, and they're really "love" their fans, and understand they wouldn't be anywhere without them.
so I was trying to say that at bamboozle we were walking back to the main stage, and there were golf carts coming up behind us and like honking, and my brother was jokingly like oh look i bet its fall out boy. and obviously it was them. so as they pull up right next to us I had to aknowledge that we apriciate them, and we were there to see them mainly. so I was like "we love you! whoooo, whooo" cause I could particularly yell " hey I've seen you like four times, and I was at the troubadour show in the front row, and I love what you guys do!" or something along the lines of that.
so after I felt like a total retard but check this out:
Fall Out Boy - US Tour Update 1 from clandestine on Vimeo.
so yah i'm in it with my friends at like 6:30 about? I was wearing a vest and a messenger-like bag, and black jeans.
that was actually a really fun concert that I had never heard of until this year, and I really enjoyed it.
It was set up really well, It was sponsored by Wonka so they were giving out free candy like crazy.
They weather was a bit hot, but nothing like warped tour of Coachella I imagine.
I plan on trying to go next year, if the bands are just as good.
(hopefully my friends and I get to go to Coachella too!)
so yah need to get studying. yup Saturday and I'm studying but I have a test in every class on monday. And its all my hard classes (of course)
and on Tuesday I have a final in APES.
& of course AP's are in 2 weeks!
yay! of course so much relief when those are over.
man I guess its about 30 more school days left or something.
wow.
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